36” x 48” Oil on Canvas 2019
How does one breathe under water? The fish do it and I do it, as a diver searching for pearls. Submerse yourself with me. We will all need to learn how to breathe underwater. Soon we will leave the dryness and enter into communion with our purest form and substance.
Bubbles emerge from my mouth as I look out and upward toward the night sky, for this is a night dive. My own breath obscures the stars above, and the surface breaks with evidence of my life escaping toward the atmosphere. Suddenly I gasp, and am comforted by familiar air filling my lungs. How can this be? We've come along way as a human race, and we've adapted to breathing underwater.
A lot of my journey and mental energy, even as I paint, has been about student loan debt and how to alleviate the problems it has caused me in my life. Debt is a monster that most Americans find in their closet, and I found myself in this situation after years of living in financial ignorance, with no financial literacy or education. I exchanged my freedom for big college names and a hope for a future where I would be an automatic success. Well, I learned the hard way, that you pay it all back, with interest. Interesting, right? So I've had to learn to breathe underwater. I've had to learn to survive, to make my way, and to thrive, even as I live underwater. My solution to this problem is to find or make beauty wherever I can, and to live wisely from here on out. That's how I choose to breathe underwater.